like the chase??

ah! sooo when I entered 9th grade, I developed a nice little following of the opposite sex...then 10th grade came around and my following grew...now in 11th grade my following is RIDICULOUS!. not being cocky. conceited...none of that. simply stating the facts! But if you know me, you know that I don't fall into the traps of "relationships". too much drama, too much pain...sure you can get happiness. but shoot I make myself happy. boys only seem to add distractions. Its crazy because when I was a little girl I would look at tv and see the whole "boy crazy" talks that older girls used to have...sure I had crushes...but at the time I was thinking "that won't be me.." yet here I am. Although I only "talk" to boys, even that is a major distraction...instead of doing hw I find myself texting the latest guy I'm talking to...or up on the phone with one when I know that I'm tired and I know that its going to be hell trynna wake up the following day. I'll be in class, talking to Montie about the latest boys in our lives...the drama they cause...how much we like this person...how much we don't like this person...how cute such and such is...how ugly such and such is...how much we have changed from when we were little girls...everything under the sun THAT HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH WHAT OUR TEACHER IS TALKING ABOUT!

I mean I'm cool, my grades haven't slipped Thank God! but I can see that if I continue they will...and I refuse to let that happen!

I don't want a boyfriend...I really don't. I don't want a friend with benefits either...just someone cool, I can kick it with talk on the phone with that type of stuff...unfortunately I'm a bit shallow and it seems like the guys I find myself attracted to are the douche bags of the world. smh. "nice guys finish last".

Any of my girls know that "i like the chase" i would much rather talk to a guy, who i can tell is into me but i can tell i'm not the only person in his life...not in a swinger type way though. while i'm talking to that guy there is always some really nice guy who genuinely likes ME and i am the only girl they are talking to...and i don't like that...i call them "simps"...they fall too easily...they want to commit...stuff that I don't feel like going through...i'm 16 i want to have fun! chill. hang out...not be worried about how much someone likes me and wants to be with me..,thats what marriage is for....you only live once and i'm going to make sure i have as much fun as i can before i settle down...

*sigh* thats when the problem comes in...all the good guys seem to want to settle down...they don't just want to kick it like i want to. so i get stuck talking to the guys who want to talk about nothing but sex...pictures...or the a-holes who feel themselves WAYYYYYYY too much. yea i'm pretty and i'm sure that if you saw me at a party or something you would probably think "ok shes cute. i can get that." not that i display myself liek a whore when i go out but i probably don't act as lady like as i should. but DON'T EVER get it twisted...i'm a smart girl with a good head on her shoulders...and LOTS OF SELF-RESPECT! a word of advice..."don't ever try to play me"...it won't happen....boys these days need to keep their hormones in check and try to get to know ppl better before they try to get in somebodies pants or see whats under someone's shirt...

yes sometimes us females bring it upon ourselves a lot of times we don't carry ourselves in the respectful manner in which we would like to be treated. true. but maybe guys should tell girls that instead of telling girls to send them pics...or let them hit...or whatever else...OR their gonna get mad if you don't...i don't speak for the rest of the girls in the world...but i speak for myself when i say IDGAF! GET MAD! you need to respect my decisions point. blank. period.

i'm not going to dog out men like the typical thing women do because there are lots of men who are great...most girls don't want those though...its sad. but true.

i was reading my friend chris's blog...hes only 20 but i really respect him because he is nothing but respectful when it comes to women...

"ALL OF you girls who take pictures of your body, or half naked put it on facebook or myspace or get drunk at parties and dance like your a hoe and wear clothes like that you invite guys to see you that way and treat you that way. Then when you get done dirty by one of those bum ass niggas you say "DUDeS AINT SHIT", No! look what you attract to yourself. Its all about how you carry yourself and its sad what yall do for the attention of us men. IF you dont want to be treated like a hoe dont wear the uniform or play the part. HAVE SOME RESPECT FOR YOURSELF AND ACT LIKE A LADY!!!"

smh. its true. and thats how we women need to live...thats what i'm gonna do...if you don't like it. screw you. i'm pretty. bomb. cute. beautiful. smart. intelligent. i have goals. i ahve self-respect. i'm going places in my life other than the street corner or the clinic...you can fall in line or get out of my life.

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-Sunny Dae